Two Reasons I SMILE:)
I am not really sure where to begin this post....my heart....family update...Christmas...ect...but over the past several months I have realized how much I NEED JESUS Daily. This post is more for me to try and begin processing my heart since our move.
This past summer we packed up and left our new home in Mobile and moved into an old house in Dothan. We left behind some really wonderful friends who I miss dearly....I also miss our church terribly. Jeffrey started a new job. Hannah started preschool. Caroline turned one. And we found out we are expecting our third baby girl. This pregnancy and move have really caused me to examine my heart. I am thankful that we serve a sovereign God who's timing is perfect, despite what I may think. I have battled the thought of why God would give us another child now. It seems like the worst timing. Jeffrey works long hours and pregnancy causes me to feel awful. I could give you several other reasons for not wanting a baby right now, but as I write I am reminded of the verse we have been teaching Hannah Kate. "Do everything without complaining or arguing" Phil 2:14 So for the most part I have felt humbled as we have fought to survive during this transition. I long for us to settle somewhere and meet and really KNOW people. I want to share our lives with others and for them to share theirs with us. Sometimes I miss living in a small town where I run into people I know everywhere I go.....where I know how and where to get my children involved in activities....where I can be a part of what is going on. I am blessed to be able to stay at home with my little darlings, but find it hard to really get to know people. We have met some really wonderful people in Dothan, who have displayed Christ love in so many ways to our family during this transition. But still my heart longs for true community. I'm not sure what this looks like. I desire to grow to be a child of God, wife, mother and friend who seeks to love and serve others around me (Despite my fear of people and how they view me, my children, my family, my home,ect). Thankfully I belong to a sovereign God whose plan is perfect! He is my Father whom I love and can Trust!
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understandings; in ALL your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
3 comments:
Your post was so inspiring. I appreciate your heartfelt honesty. Can't wait to see what God has planned for you and your family.
Cindy (your mother-in-law who loves and appreciates you). thanks for loving my son and making him happy.
did you jump in my brain and rummage around or what?! if you ever look at my blog you can see i have fallen away from even wanting to write. we are getting better but it is hard to transition away from community and start over. i should just call you rather than type an eternally long post. i will call you next week.
what a beatiful, honest post. I admire your transparent heart and pray that by now you feel a little more connected and "at home" in Dothan/Troy. I miss your family.
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